Si Jantung Hati

Last month, I brought my children to see a doctor due to masalah biasalah.. batuk, selsema. Masa Dr tengah examine Rizq, tiba2 dia tanya "Rizq ni ada heart problem ke?". I sangat terkejut dengan soalan itu and said "Takde.. why Dr?". Dr diam... and continued examining him. After a while (which I thought was like forever), the doctor told me she heard murmurs from his heart indicating that heart dia cam ada lobang. Ketika itu, saya rasa seolah-olah jantung saya juga telah terberhenti seketika. Terasa seolah-olah jika ditoreh kulit ini, nescaya tidak akan ada darah yang mengalir. Gelap pandangan seketika. Sayu hati tengok muka dia yang innocent yang tak tahu apa2 tu..

The Dr later asked me whether were there occassions when Rizq suddenly turned blue. I said, never & that he's always been an active boy.. memanjat, berlari, melompat etc. She later advised me to bring him for proper assessment by a paediatric cardiologist and wrote a referral letter for us. Lepas keluar dari bilik Dr, I told my hubby who was waiting outside about what the Dr said. Hubby diam... termenung panjang... I quickly called my sis. Lepas tu barulah rasa lega sikit sebab my sis kata some people memang ada murmurs tu... tapi as long as jantung dia functioning well, insya Allah takde apa2. Lagipun dia kata Rizq tu active... takde nampak pun macam ciri2 sakit jantung. I felt much much better after that, but my sis still advised me to bring him for proper assessment.

So semalam I decided to bring him to see a paediatric cardiologist at Sunway Medical Centre. I brought both Shad & Rizq. Memang I prefer to bring Shad along so that Rizq won't be too bored while waiting. It was just me and the boys. Hubby as usual, working. It was a last minute decision, tiba2 je semalam terasa cam nak bawak gi hospital. I only informed hubby after we were already at the hospital.

Dipendekkan cerita..... Dr bawaklah kami ke tempat buat echocardiogram to see the images of the heart beating and the structures of the heart. Procedure dia sama macam buat ultrasound gitu, but kat dada lah instead of kat perut. Lama sangat Dr buat procedure tu. I mula tak sedap hati. Dalam hati, rasa menyesal pulak tak bawak hubby. I silently prayed to Allah to give me strength in case the news turn out to be devastating. Rizq remained calm and cool throughout the procedure. Banyak pulak toys atas katil tu. So... relax je dia baring sambil sebelah tangan dok main toys. He didn't look scared at all.

After more than half-an hour..... barulah siap. The Dr later confirmed that his heart is in perfect shape and those murmurs are considered as innocent murmurs. What a relief!!!.. Dr puji Rizq for being so baik & gave him Ben-10 stickers. Abang Shad pun dapat jugak. Rizq cakap "ibu... Cici sukalah Dr tu. Besok kita datang lagi ok?". ha.. ha.... suka hati dia je nak datang2 hospital. The whole procedure cost me a bomb! Kalau buat kat UMMC, mesti free. Tapi I tak dapat bayangkan camnalah nak bawak anak2 I yang tak reti dok diam tu menunggu berjam-jam-jam kat hospital. So, takpelah....... that is the price we have to pay for such good news.

Alhamdulillah syukur to Allah, there's nothing wrong with my jantung hati.