Ya ampunnn.... dah bersawang dah blog ni. Haiyah.. what to do. Life has been xtremely busy ever since the arrival of Arsh. It was ok for the first month coz I had a maid then, but now I'm back to ibu terlampau mode as I have sent my maid back to her country about 2 weeks ago after working for us for one good month. Will blog about my maid saga later. At the time of writing, it's just me and Arsh in the house. Rizq has just gone to school (oh yeah... he has started pre-schooling) in the afternoon session. right now Ars is comfortably sleeping in cradle position in our littlepods pouch. Please remind me later to blog about my most recent obsession - babywearing and cloth diapering. Argh... it is really really fun mothering a baby in these modern days.
For now, let me continue my unfinished story abt my 3rd munchkin's birth story. Kena paksa tulis cepat ni sebelum lupa & sementara Arsh tido...
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We reached the hospital at 11pm. At that time I felt so grateful because as if Allah was answering my prayers which to make things easy for us four when the time finally came. The timing was perfect... hubby was at home, and the kids belum tido lagi. So bolehlah angkut budak berdua tu sekali ke hospital. Hubby was extraordinarily calm while driving to the hospital. Slow je bawak kereta.. I think he was afraid of causing hurt to me. But i was not in pain. ada rasa contractions tp tak kuat n irregular. I was a bit confused, i said to hubby "takkan nak bersalin dah kot.. tak sakit pun".. he he... eksyen....
Sampai hospital, the lower part of my dress sudah already basah lencun dgn amniotic fluid. But because I was not feeling any pain, I can still walk. The boys were so excited with the thought of seeing their baby brother soon. A guard offered us a wheelchair, but i said takpe..takpe... saya nak jalan. Teringat pesan orang tua2 n mommy2 otai, kalau nak bersalin cepat kena banyak jalan. Sampai kat labour ward, upon seeing my wet dress, cepat2 lah nurse suh masuk delivery room. Argh.... memori berulang kembali ke 7 tahun yang lampau - pengalaman bersalin yang sugguh mengerikan untuk dikenang masa bersalinkan Shad. I had Rizq via c-section, so it was a different story. Bila dah terkenang sakit masa I delievered Shad, I was determined to take epidural this time. Tapi yang peliknya, dah sampai labour room pun I was still not feeling pain. Adalah rasa cramp2 macam menstrual pain, but it was not like what I felt when I had Shad.
Dah masuk labour room, I asked hubby to take the kids home as children were not allowed to be in the delivery area. I kissed my boys and assured them that I was okay n that they will meet their baby brother soon. Rizq looked worried. Salah myself jugak, sebab pernah tunjuk video orang beranak (normal n c-section) kat dia. Rizq said, "Cici tanak ibu sakit... Cici tanak Dr potong ibu". I tried to make him feel better by saying the doctor will give ibu medicine so that ibu tak sakit.
After they left, the nursed performed VE on me (yuckss. so sakit) n said I was only 2cm dilated. I told her that I want epidural and ask them to make the necessary arrangement. Nurse tanya, dah sakit ke? I said, tak pun. The graph on ECG machine showed that I had contractions but it was mild and still irregular. Hubby called me later and told me that he had to wait until Rizq falls asleep then only he can come back to the hospital to accompany me. By that time, my in-laws were already in our house to look after the boys. Hubby told me that Rizq was so worried abt me and had difficulties to sleep. I asked hubby to sleep with Rizq and only come back to the hospital after Subuh since I was not in pain and I felt that, at that time Rizq needed his father to be with him.
Fast forward.... at 6 am... the anaesthetist came to put epidural in me. At that time, i was still not in pain. Mulalah rasa serba salah, nak epi ke tak. The reason to have epi is to block the pain kan.. so kalau tak sakit, rasa cam tak berbaloi lah pulak. The anaest explainlah the pros and cons of having epidural. Pikir punya pikir punya lupikirlahsendiri, last last I proceeded lah jugak with epi. I was a bit nervous when she was about to poke my lumbar coz I read in the internet that it can be a bit painful. Tambah pulak, teringat masa nak bersalinkan Rizq, I felt sakit masa anaest poked my lumbar to do the spinal block. So.. mulalah terasa nervous.. but Alhamdullilah.. ok je.. tak sakit pun. As soon as she's done with the procedure, terasa segala cramp hilang serta merta. Wah... this is good... But lepas tu mula rasa kaki berat especially my left leg. Hubby came back to the hospital after I'm done with the epi procedure. I kept feeling like my left leg was falling off the bed and asked hubby to put it back on the bed as I could not feel my legs. So tulah kerja suami saya dalam labour room, asyik betulkan kedudukan kaki saya.
At 8 am.... nurse buat VE lagi and this time tak sakit langsung la due to epi. guess what.... baru 3cm dilate. Aduuuhai... dari pukul 12 malam sampai 8 pagi baru bergerak 1 cm. At that point they decided to induce my labour since my water bag had ruptured, I had to give birth within 24 hours. Masa tu rasa betapalah wisenya my decision to take epi coz I know induced labour IS painful.
Fast forward..... my favourite Dr Siti came at 9am. It was good to see her cheerful face and at that time I felt I was in good hands. She said "nice ha.. epidural", and I replied "verryyyy niceee...". Hubby and I continued chit chatting to kill the time.. daydreaming about how the baby would look like. He was happy to see me so relax and calm and he said it was so much different from the experience with Shad. I looked at the ECG graph and saw my contractions were high and regular, but I was totally totally not in pain.
11am.... my epidural dose sudah habis. They checked on me and said that I was already 8cm dilated. Masa tu mulalah rasa berbelah bagi, nak top up ke taknak. The nurses advised me not to top up sebab mmg it's a practice for them to turn off the epi at the final stage of labo0ur so that the mother can feel the contractions hence, easier to do the pushing. I pun dengan reluctantnya agreed not to top up the epi. But after that, one nurse performed VE again and said, baru 6-7 cm dilated, and not 8cm. Halamak... lagi 4 cm... So i asked them to top up the epi. Gila punya takut sakit. So they topped up as requested. Lepas top up epi, dua2 kaki dah tak rasa langsung which was not a good sign la since I need to feel my legs to do the pushing. Hmm... bad decision....
Almost 12 noon..... I was already fully dilated. They turned off the epi. Ceh.. baru je top up, dah turn off. Membazir betul. The nurses asked me to practise pushing. I managed to push until crowning before Dr siti appeared. So mulalah adegan push mengepush. But I tell you.. mmg susah.. sebab I tak rasa apa benda yang nak dipushnya sebab the effect of epi was still there even after they turn it off. Sungguh meriah pagi itu sebab ramai betul cheerleaders ie the nurses lah. After many many trials of pushing, Dr finally decided to vacuum the baby out. Akhirnya, baby pun keluar and they said "it's a boy!!!"
I cried... I really cried.. It was tears of relief and gratefulness. Dr Siti placed the baby in my arms and i was like "ehhh.... macam Shad". He really looked like newborn Shad at that time. I couldn't take my eyes off him. He was so beautiful with thick wavy hair, red kissable lips, so fair, so perfect and the way he looked at me... oh.. it was such a magical feeling. The nurses took him to the side to clean him. After they clean him, the nurse gave him back to me to be nursed. Alhamdulillah, he latched on rightaway.
Hubby accompanied me that night. No words could describe our feelings that night. Looking forward to experience this all over again in a couple of years, insya Allah.... (with the help of epidural, of course)
We reached the hospital at 11pm. At that time I felt so grateful because as if Allah was answering my prayers which to make things easy for us four when the time finally came. The timing was perfect... hubby was at home, and the kids belum tido lagi. So bolehlah angkut budak berdua tu sekali ke hospital. Hubby was extraordinarily calm while driving to the hospital. Slow je bawak kereta.. I think he was afraid of causing hurt to me. But i was not in pain. ada rasa contractions tp tak kuat n irregular. I was a bit confused, i said to hubby "takkan nak bersalin dah kot.. tak sakit pun".. he he... eksyen....
Sampai hospital, the lower part of my dress sudah already basah lencun dgn amniotic fluid. But because I was not feeling any pain, I can still walk. The boys were so excited with the thought of seeing their baby brother soon. A guard offered us a wheelchair, but i said takpe..takpe... saya nak jalan. Teringat pesan orang tua2 n mommy2 otai, kalau nak bersalin cepat kena banyak jalan. Sampai kat labour ward, upon seeing my wet dress, cepat2 lah nurse suh masuk delivery room. Argh.... memori berulang kembali ke 7 tahun yang lampau - pengalaman bersalin yang sugguh mengerikan untuk dikenang masa bersalinkan Shad. I had Rizq via c-section, so it was a different story. Bila dah terkenang sakit masa I delievered Shad, I was determined to take epidural this time. Tapi yang peliknya, dah sampai labour room pun I was still not feeling pain. Adalah rasa cramp2 macam menstrual pain, but it was not like what I felt when I had Shad.
Dah masuk labour room, I asked hubby to take the kids home as children were not allowed to be in the delivery area. I kissed my boys and assured them that I was okay n that they will meet their baby brother soon. Rizq looked worried. Salah myself jugak, sebab pernah tunjuk video orang beranak (normal n c-section) kat dia. Rizq said, "Cici tanak ibu sakit... Cici tanak Dr potong ibu". I tried to make him feel better by saying the doctor will give ibu medicine so that ibu tak sakit.
After they left, the nursed performed VE on me (yuckss. so sakit) n said I was only 2cm dilated. I told her that I want epidural and ask them to make the necessary arrangement. Nurse tanya, dah sakit ke? I said, tak pun. The graph on ECG machine showed that I had contractions but it was mild and still irregular. Hubby called me later and told me that he had to wait until Rizq falls asleep then only he can come back to the hospital to accompany me. By that time, my in-laws were already in our house to look after the boys. Hubby told me that Rizq was so worried abt me and had difficulties to sleep. I asked hubby to sleep with Rizq and only come back to the hospital after Subuh since I was not in pain and I felt that, at that time Rizq needed his father to be with him.
Fast forward.... at 6 am... the anaesthetist came to put epidural in me. At that time, i was still not in pain. Mulalah rasa serba salah, nak epi ke tak. The reason to have epi is to block the pain kan.. so kalau tak sakit, rasa cam tak berbaloi lah pulak. The anaest explainlah the pros and cons of having epidural. Pikir punya pikir punya lupikirlahsendiri, last last I proceeded lah jugak with epi. I was a bit nervous when she was about to poke my lumbar coz I read in the internet that it can be a bit painful. Tambah pulak, teringat masa nak bersalinkan Rizq, I felt sakit masa anaest poked my lumbar to do the spinal block. So.. mulalah terasa nervous.. but Alhamdullilah.. ok je.. tak sakit pun. As soon as she's done with the procedure, terasa segala cramp hilang serta merta. Wah... this is good... But lepas tu mula rasa kaki berat especially my left leg. Hubby came back to the hospital after I'm done with the epi procedure. I kept feeling like my left leg was falling off the bed and asked hubby to put it back on the bed as I could not feel my legs. So tulah kerja suami saya dalam labour room, asyik betulkan kedudukan kaki saya.
At 8 am.... nurse buat VE lagi and this time tak sakit langsung la due to epi. guess what.... baru 3cm dilate. Aduuuhai... dari pukul 12 malam sampai 8 pagi baru bergerak 1 cm. At that point they decided to induce my labour since my water bag had ruptured, I had to give birth within 24 hours. Masa tu rasa betapalah wisenya my decision to take epi coz I know induced labour IS painful.
Fast forward..... my favourite Dr Siti came at 9am. It was good to see her cheerful face and at that time I felt I was in good hands. She said "nice ha.. epidural", and I replied "verryyyy niceee...". Hubby and I continued chit chatting to kill the time.. daydreaming about how the baby would look like. He was happy to see me so relax and calm and he said it was so much different from the experience with Shad. I looked at the ECG graph and saw my contractions were high and regular, but I was totally totally not in pain.
11am.... my epidural dose sudah habis. They checked on me and said that I was already 8cm dilated. Masa tu mulalah rasa berbelah bagi, nak top up ke taknak. The nurses advised me not to top up sebab mmg it's a practice for them to turn off the epi at the final stage of labo0ur so that the mother can feel the contractions hence, easier to do the pushing. I pun dengan reluctantnya agreed not to top up the epi. But after that, one nurse performed VE again and said, baru 6-7 cm dilated, and not 8cm. Halamak... lagi 4 cm... So i asked them to top up the epi. Gila punya takut sakit. So they topped up as requested. Lepas top up epi, dua2 kaki dah tak rasa langsung which was not a good sign la since I need to feel my legs to do the pushing. Hmm... bad decision....
Almost 12 noon..... I was already fully dilated. They turned off the epi. Ceh.. baru je top up, dah turn off. Membazir betul. The nurses asked me to practise pushing. I managed to push until crowning before Dr siti appeared. So mulalah adegan push mengepush. But I tell you.. mmg susah.. sebab I tak rasa apa benda yang nak dipushnya sebab the effect of epi was still there even after they turn it off. Sungguh meriah pagi itu sebab ramai betul cheerleaders ie the nurses lah. After many many trials of pushing, Dr finally decided to vacuum the baby out. Akhirnya, baby pun keluar and they said "it's a boy!!!"
I cried... I really cried.. It was tears of relief and gratefulness. Dr Siti placed the baby in my arms and i was like "ehhh.... macam Shad". He really looked like newborn Shad at that time. I couldn't take my eyes off him. He was so beautiful with thick wavy hair, red kissable lips, so fair, so perfect and the way he looked at me... oh.. it was such a magical feeling. The nurses took him to the side to clean him. After they clean him, the nurse gave him back to me to be nursed. Alhamdulillah, he latched on rightaway.
Hubby accompanied me that night. No words could describe our feelings that night. Looking forward to experience this all over again in a couple of years, insya Allah.... (with the help of epidural, of course)
"When a baby first looks at you, when it laughs that deep, unselfconscious gurgle; or when it cries and you pick it up and it clings sobbing to you, then you are, happy is not the precise word, filled. ~ Marilyn French
Awww u made me cried at your 2nd last para... me looking forward 4 my day :)
ReplyDeleteQue, I sangat jeles reading this... for i donno i ada peluang ke tak nak go through such experience.
ReplyDeleteMilin - my prayers that Allah permudahkan the process for you. Make sure that i'm one of the first people to receive the good news.
ReplyDeleteSis ubi - don't say like that...malam masih muda.... sempat lagi ni..